one year on

my beautiful country.

it’s been a year since huge disaster hit japan.
i still remember the day vividly.
at first, i was confused. i learnt there was earthquake in japan on twitter on the way back home from work.
the reason i was confused was my timeline was full of people scared and shocked but they were from everywhere. so i thought earthquake happened many places in a short period of time.
after i came home, i called my family in japan but no answer.
then after a while, i saw what we all saw – huge tsunami swallowing towns of tohoku.

i was so sick to worry about my family.
my father in a tiny old house still struggling living by himself, my mother in nursing home paralysed because of stroke, and my brother who was truck driver often drove to tsunami affected area.
soon i heard all of them were safe.
father was at work with others, mother was luckily just got out from the elevator with her physio, and my brother was also very luckily survived. he supposed to go to tohoku but he had to go opposite side of japan due to other people’s trouble. sadly the person who took over my brother and went to tohoku never came back..

i couldn’t stop watching tv footage and reading news on internet and made myself depressed and worried. i was so sad and at the same time i felt helpless.
i was far far from where disaster struck and all i could do is just feeling down… no use and ashamed.
i participated and organised fundraising events around melbourne. and then realised so many people felt the same way as i did regardless of nationality.
just walking on a street, going to the shops, and total stranger talked to me.
they helped me realise world is beautiful.

after one year, people are still suffering and fukushima makes it more complicated and harder. hope things get better for those who affected, and at the same time i strongly feel need to remember there are many people in this beautiful world struggling and needing help with or without huge disaster.
people are easily moved and affected by the huge sensational news but we need effort to remember things which is not on news everyday.
and most important and easy to forget is about those who around you.
we all have to say goodbye to this world, and we don’t know when and how.

take nothing for granted and appreciate what you’ve got, be true to yourself.

endometriosis awareness month

march is the world endometriosis awareness month.
in australia, from 5th to 11th march is the national endometriosis awareness week.

endometriosis is a medical condition which the tissue inside the uterus exist other part of the body. as your lining of the uterus grows each month, the ones outside the uterus also grow. when your period starts, it also bleed and makes your body adhered or inflamed and then this can cause pain, infertility and other problem. some say pain was much more intense than giving birth and it happens every month!

it’s said as much as 10 % of women are affected this terrible desease. if you are lucky, you don’t feel a thing and no problem at all. you will never know you have endometriosis. but for so many of us, it’s really big matter. it’s not just a period pain. quality of life is threatened.

currently there is no cure and sadly it will grow if the illness is not treated.
so it is very important to notice, go to see a doctor and get diagnosed (laparoscopic surgery is only sure way) as soon as possible.

( Endometriosis from Endometriosis.org on Vimeo. )

this is my case. it’s going to be bit long.. sorry.

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thank you

cuppa?

on a very hot day, at unfortunately not airconditioned cafe with a friend.

i was so exhausted because i had surgery a week ago and still bleeding; emotionally worn out too because the surgery was due to miscarriage. yes, i was pregnant for 10 weeks after painful ivf x 10.

but when i came home, i was little happier. a quality time with friends is what i needed, not time to grieve alone.

this is a example of many many support i had after my bad news.

i got emails, calls, txts or other means, and met in person too.
i know it is quite difficult thing to comment and understand it might be hard to even say a word. but all the word i got comforted me and made me happier.

Huge huge loss but now appreciate more for what i’ve got.

since i had symptom of endometriosis, i can’t help but notice how friends and family are important to me and how much they have supported me when i needed the most.
because my symptom is terrible and had experienced so many things including this miscarriage, i now wonder if i can give back enough.
i just have to try my best to be a better me so i can do a little help to make my important people smile someday.

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i wrote this sometime ago and forgot to post it ;P

Beach and Ice cream

I love beach.
I love the sound of wave, and I love the ocean breeze that bring the scent of the sea.

Maybe half of my blood is from a little island floating middle of Genkai Sea.
(and I love the city life as another half is from one of the biggest city in the world!)

Whenever I have a chance, I go to beach. Just sit there and do nothing much.
I love the smell of the autumn beach the best. I can’t tell why but always feel nostalgic.
Winter is freezing cold by the beach but the air is clearer and refreshing.
In spring, I can stay at the beach longer and how happy I feel every first no-jacket at the beach day.
And Summer! I can’t wait to eat ice cream sitting on the beach, and I love burying my feet in the sand to cool down.
It’s pity I found never-in-the-beach days since I came to Melbourne.
That is when heat wave comes. Too hot to get to the beach, too hot to stay, ice cream would turn in to shake straight away.

Now I am waiting for the day to put my feet under this soft and shiny sand.

Yes, I love ice cream too.
If you are in Melbourne I highly recommend Jock’s.
In this spring, me, yoshi and mr A have tried and tested many popular ice cream shops around the town. Sometimes we tried 2 shops in a day.
And we decided Jock’s is the best unanimously!

Soon I will be at the beach eating Jock’s icecream!!
Just thinking about it makes me happy

Red Cross Appeal Report and Thank you

It’s been 7 months since my country was hit by huge quake together with the horrific big wave. Recovery is still underway and the nukes problems are big concern for everyone.

I joined some fundrasing events, organised one, and I also raised fund online by participating Australian Red Cross “Japan and Pacific disaster 2011 appeal”.

As Australian Red Cross closed the appeal, I would like to thank everyone who helped me to raise the fund. We have raised $837.65 online only.
Sad thing doesn’t have to be all bad. I was really touched by many people, friends and even strangers through this devastating disaster. I’d like to thank you who donated and concerned about my country. You all are awesome!

Appeal

Australian Red Cross has closed the Japan and Pacific Disaster Appeal 2011.

The appeal has raised more than $23.5 million.

The funds raised through this appeal are being used to support communities affected by the earthquake in Japan and the resultant tsunami that reached numerous countries around the Pacific Rim and within the Pacific Ocean. The funds are being used to:

Provide earthquake and tsunami affected communities, displaced families and their host families with emergency relief, equipment and recovery assistance

Send specialist aid workers to assist in relief, recovery and longer term disaster management operations

Support the work of Japanese Red Cross Society and other Red Cross and Red Crescent Societies from affected countries in assisting people devastated by this disaster.

People can still donate by visiting the Japanese Red Cross Society website’s Emergency Relief section.

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one year on

endometriosis awareness month

thank you

Beach and Ice cream

Red Cross Appeal Report and Thank you